Wednesday, January 26, 2011

The Beginning

June 23, 2010. The decision that led me to be more in love with me....how could I say "I DO" to the man of my dreams without first, whole-heartedly loving me? Doesn't make sense to you huh? Well, me neither. For years I had dreamt of escaping from the constraints of society's shackles...yet my fear confined me. Sadly, I am on who put more emphasis on what others thought of me instead of seeing my own inner beauty. How can someone else validate what they didn't create? CRAZY right? Well, I know I am late, but I finally came to my senses...It's funny how people say, "It's just a trend", or "why are girls doing this?" or, " Everybody doesn't have pretty natural hair..." Ridiculous. Who are you to tell me what is "pretty". To me,it was quite refreshing to see a trend effecting society in a positive way...so many women embracing their natural beauty... why is that a bad thing? When really the first trend was to relax our hair so that we can fit European standards...and who is following a trend again? Funny...people are seriously brainwashed.
So I thought, what better time to start? I have support, and I am not alone...exactly what I needed. Well, my mother and I had a plan to BIG CHOP when my father got home...but I know me. If I set a date, I will find some excuse to postpone, and eventually will never get done. I knew if I was going to do it, I couldn't plan it it just had to be done.
Well January 21st 2011...almost hitting 7months, it was done. Definitely not a part of the plan, but in actuality, my plan was to not plan...so it worked out. I had an appointment set up the next day for another transition style (kinky twists) and my sister had agreed to take my weave extensions out. Ha! She sure did get me. :-) (Love you Stace!) She got to telling me, "Girl, you might as well cut this off" and before I knew it, I said, "ok, let's go!" I ran to look at the mirror, and at first I screamed. I could not believe that I built up the courage to go ahead and do it, but boy, was it a shocker! I felt like a boy! I didn't know what to expect, but I know it's going to take some getting used to...The best thing was, #1,  I felt SOOOOO free! Washing my hair was a breeze! And my husband absolutely LOVES it! Needless to say, I still got the kinky twists, (I had to keep my appointment :-) But I am looking forward to the days to come...


Free to be ME! ;-)
                                            still in the getting used to stage...but I will conquer this insecurity!
                                          right after BC! No product...